I was so nervous about starting this blog because I knew God was calling me to share my innermost thoughts and feelings with the world. I am quite the introvert so sharing intimate parts of myself with others has always been difficult. I feared if I would be misunderstood or whether people would judge my authenticity as too much to handle. Needless to say, I have received positive responses from most but I neglected to prepare myself for what was to come.
Yes I was concerned about what people would think about my story but I neglected to prepare myself for what the enemy would do as a result of my obedience to God's plan for me. You see the devil was laughing the whole time I was depressed and down about being confined to a wheelchair. He had me right where he wanted me. I wasn't sharing my faith anymore. I wasn't using my gifts. I was just sad and frustrated with the state of my circumstances. The devil whispered lies in my ears and I listened. But once I came out of that funk and started listening to the quiet tugging of God's voice instead, the devil became enraged. As a result of my new found motivation, all hell broke loose in my life.
The very next day after I published my first blog post, we lost a stream of income right out of the blue. Our washing machine stopped working. Then I started having pains in my neck and shoulders which made it even more difficult to write. A host of other situations arose that shook me to the core. I started to begin that same old cycle of frustration that I had fought so hard to overcome, but then I heard the voice of God say, "Why are you surprised? The fiery darts are coming." God went on to share with me that anytime you do something radical you should plan for opposition. It is the tactic the enemy uses to get you to quit. The fiery darts are designed to get you off track. The enemy wants you to focus more on the opposition against you in hopes that you lose focus on the assignment God has set before you. When the fiery darts come, take solace in the fact that you are on the right track.
The Bible tells us that no weapon formed against us shall prosper. What we sometimes don't prepare ourselves for is that the weapon will in fact form. Our response to the weapon however should be praise. I know it sounds weird, but once I started praising God for the weapons forming, He opened so many other doors in such a short amount of time. I am even more amazed by the open doors than shocked by the ones that closed. Not only did God open other doors for me but my attitude changed about the situations that still remain. I know that God is working on my behalf so it is not my job to try and figure out how to make something happen. My only responsibility is to keep moving forward in purpose and praise God through the circumstances that have yet to change.
I have chosen to look at my fiery darts as an indication that the devil is mad at me. I want to keep making him mad. Yes, there are days that the pain is overwhelming but even when I can't write or share a post, I can put on songs of worship and just praise God through my pain. Yes there are days when I feel so consumed by the fiery darts that it is hard to breathe but I keep reminding myself that brighter days are coming. No our finances are not where I want them to be but I can give God a thank you for a roof over our heads and food on the table. Some people would trade places with me in a heartbeat just to have a bed to call their own. It is in those moments when I feel so low that God reminds me how blessed I truly am and that things could be worse. It is all about our perspective. Sometimes when the fiery darts come all you can do is thank God that things are as well as they are.
Be encouraged today to know that your fiery darts are just an indication that God is pleased with what you are doing. The devil sees the purpose in you. He knows that there is an anointing on your life and he is determined to stop you from sharing your gift. He wants you to quit. I am learning to look beyond the night seasons in my life and look forward to the breaking of day. God will never leave us or forsake us no matter how difficult our situation may be. In Psalm 37:25, David says, "I have been young, and now I am old; yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread." Think about that for a moment. David was by no means perfect. He repented more times than we could probably count. He made his share of mistakes but yet he could say with confidence that God always met his needs!
Despite the devil's tactics and tricks, know that God will never forsake His people. God loves us despite our shortcomings. The enemy will try to fool you into thinking that God is not with you and for you but he is the father of lies. Stay focused on God's purpose and plan for your life. Don't let the devil catch you by surprise the next time God calls you to do something extraordinary. Hand in hand with your purpose will be fiery darts. No matter how much pain they may cause...DON'T QUIT!
Until next time....Be Real. Be Authentic. Be YOU!