Every morning just like clockwork, I put on worship music and begin to pray. I am amazed at what God continues to show me through this short time of intimacy with Him. I have come a long way from the days of silence and indifference towards God. There have been times when I was so overwhelmed by my circumstances that I didn't know how to form words into sentences to pray let alone pour out my heart to God. I have learned to push past those moments and pray anyway despite feelings of isolation, disappointment and pain. God allowed me to go through that season to teach me to trust Him in all things. I have learned a valuable lesson about the power of prayer and it's ability to change my mindset and align my will with God's.
As I have continued to grow in my walk with God, I am in awe of how much He loves me. Despite the flaws I have and my inconsistencies, I can still hear Him calling my name. The love of God is so special. There is no way that I can begin to compare it to any other feeling without doing it injustice. In God's abiding love, He draws me in. During this time of drawing, I have experienced a deeper connection to God than I thought was possible. It is beyond an infatuation or simple rendezvous but now I have a level of commitment to God that causes me to want to know more about His character. What I experienced in the past in my relationship with God, although wonderful does not even compare to what I feel at this moment.
We have all been in relationships and depending upon how old you are, you probably have had your share of dead end relationships or those you thought were going somewhere and you were left brokenhearted when they did not work out. When you find that special one who is there for you through the good times and the bad times it is definitely something that you want to hold onto. Those types of relationships are few and far between because in my experience it takes a special person to stick around during the tough times. Everyone loves you when you're on top, but as soon as you hit a rough spot those same people are no where to be found. When a loyal person comes around, I can immediately detect the difference. Those special relationships are to be cherished and protected at all costs.
Just like my earthly relationships, my relationship with God has gone through many changes. There have been seasons where worship and praise were always on my lips. I would praise God when things worked out and even when they didn't. I could hear God's voice in the stillness of the night and our interactions with one another were all consuming. Then I went through seasons where the storms of life began to rage and I wondered where God was taking me. I spent many nights in tears wrestling with thoughts of negativity and despair. During this time my relationship with God took a turn. I took my eyes off of Him and my direction shifted towards my circumstances. When I did that, my view of God changed. I no longer saw Him as bigger than anything, but instead I saw the monstrosity of my problems. That season was a challenging one because I no longer heard the sweet voice of the Father but instead I was drawn into the deception of the enemy. He began to whisper in my ear and because I had drifted away from the source, I was deceived into thinking that somehow I had failed and as a result, my relationship with God suffered.
What I have since learned about God through all of the many changes we have gone through is that I was the one that did the changing. God never changed. He was always there. I allowed other things to cloud my view of Him and tarnish the relationship. He was right there waiting for me to fall back in love with Him. You see God specializes in drawing us close. There will always be distractions in our lives. There will be seasons when we are on the mountain and those difficult times when we are in the valley. What me must understand however is that God is faithful. He will never leave us nor forsake us. God draws us in with His love. He knows that there is nothing that can compare to the peace and serenity we experience in His presence.
Each of us have a void in our lives that only God can fill. When we put other things in God's place our lives will surely be in disarray. It is not just about idols, but the mistake comes when we put negative emotions and feelings in the forefront of our minds instead of reflecting on the greatness of God. Yes there will be moments when life knocks you down but in those moments you have to remind yourself of how big God is. Relationships are hard work. They don't just develop overnight. They have to be cultivated in order to grow. God will always do His part; we have to do ours.
We have to be steadfast in our walk with God. Nothing should be able to separate us from the love of Christ. Yes we may stray and fall short but in those times of weakness we must allow God to draw us back to Him. There is nothing like being in the presence of God. When you are enveloped in God's presence, nothing else matters. God draws us in even when we don't deserve His love. He draws us closer to Him because He desires the relationship as much as we do. God created us to worship Him. When we falter, He does not throw us away like men do but He draws us in even more. He reminds us not only of His sovereignty but He causes us to see Him in a new way. I am of the mindset that I will never know enough about God. Every time I think I have Him figured out He shows me a different side of Himself. I believe that is why life has a way of shaking us sometimes. It is so we can go to God with a set of circumstances and He can show us another layer of His character. If I were never in need, I would not know that God is a provider. If I never experienced sickness, I would not know Him to be a healer. If I never cried in the midnight hour, I would never know Him to be a company keeper.
I have learned to appreciate the hard times because I have learned so much more about God through those moments. We will have mountain top experiences that teach us about God's favor and His desire to prosper His people. But in the valley seasons, our character is developed and our relationship with God is cultivated. He is continually drawing me closer to Him and I am thankful that my eyes are opening and I can see Him for who He is.
There may be some of you who are experiencing a valley season in your life at this very moment. You are stuck between a rock and a hard place. Your faith is being challenged and your relationship with God is at a crossroads. I want to encourage you today to take a moment and just breathe. Find your secret place. Let God draw you close. He wants all of you today, not just the pieces you are willing to give. He wants your brokenness. He wants the real you. Give it all to Him today and I promise that you will experience God on a whole new level. He wants to draw you in. Just go through the drawing process.
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Until next time....Be Real. Be Authentic. Be YOU!!