I decided recently to endeavor to read the entire Bible from beginning to end. It's a daunting task so y'all pray for me but I am excited about the journey and what God is going to show me through this new adventure. When I have done devotions in the past, I would normally just randomly pick a scripture or find passages based on a situation that I was dealing with. While I continue to do that, this is a new journey that I am on. I started the other day and began reading about the Creation and how God formed man out of the dust of the earth and.... something happened.
I have always been a reserved person. I guess the proper term to use is that I am an introvert. Some people have perceived my reserved and quiet spirit for weakness. Others have perceived it as being snooty or stuck up. Believe me I have heard it all. My dad has always been a quiet soul so I guess I got it from him. I used to wish I could be more outgoing and sociable but I finally resolved that it is just not me. The people who have taken the time to get to know me realize that yes I am quiet at times but there is so much more to me than just that. I like to laugh and joke and have a good time but a lot of people don't get the opportunity to see that. I used to question myself and whether it was something about me that made me unapproachable or if I just needed to force myself to be more outgoing and then I read Genesis and all of my reservations began to dissipate.
In the beginning, God said, "Let us make man in our own image and our own likeness." (Genesis 1:26) It is interesting to note that God called all of the animals into existence. He spoke and a lion came to be. He said a word and a bird began flying in the air. There is no grand description of how God formed each and every animal individually. Yet when it came to man, God said let us make man. God took the dust of the earth and formed man and then He imparted His very DNA into His unique design and man became a living soul. Now I can't even tell you the number of times that I have read that scripture. I have heard it taken as a text and preached by mighty men and women of God but on this particular time I received divine revelation as it relates to my own life.
God used the dust of the earth to form man. When you think about dust, it is something that is practically useless. You cannot use dust to produce anything. It has no value, no source of nourishment yet God used it to form man. He took the time to take something that seemed useless and molded and shaped it into something mighty and powerful. He took His breath and imparted it into this lifeless creation and it became something. He made something out of nothing.
There have been times in my life where I have felt worthless. I have felt like there was no plan in place for my life. I have dwelt in past mistakes and regrets. I have longed for a do-over. There have been times when I have questioned who I am. I have looked at others and said to myself, "Why can't I be more outgoing like her or why can't I be more outspoken?" Then I realized in that moment of reading Genesis that God made me exactly who He wanted me to be. I don't have to be like other people because I am unique. God molded and shaped every part of who I am. He took the time to think about what would make me special and different. He peeked into my future and knew my quiet spirit would come in handy. He saw the struggles I would face and knew that sometimes I would have to sit in the silence and be able to handle it. When God made me, He made something out of nothing.
I want to encourage you today that if you have ever felt like you weren't good enough, or pretty enough or smart enough that it is just a lie straight from the pit of hell. God did not just speak you into existence. No, He molded and shaped every part of who you are. Just like the potter takes a piece of clay and molds it and shapes it until it becomes a masterpiece, you are the product of God's great design. He took the time to look into your future and give you everything you would need to complete this journey we call life.
When I was pregnant with my twin boys I remember feeling so heavy. I was so tired of being pregnant. All I wanted to do is hold my babies and it seemed like my due date was never going to come. Then in early December I went into labor but my due date wasn't until March. I was paralyzed with fear wondering if my babies would be okay because I knew it was too early. I laid flat on my back in the hospital for three weeks until I delivered them at 32 weeks. They were hooked up to monitors and feeding tubes and I longed to have that time back to nurture and care for them in my womb but I couldn't get that time back. Thankfully my boys came through that difficult time without any lasting effects but I would have much rather endured that time of pregnancy than to watch them struggle.
Have you ever wondered why pregnancy takes 9 months? Yes in the natural there is a developmental process. It takes time for the organs to develop. It takes time for the lungs to gain enough strength so that the infant can breathe on his or her own. This is all true but I believe that spiritual development is also going on and that does not happen over night. While in the womb I believe God is imparting gifts, talents and anointing upon that child. God is looking at every trial that the baby will face and giving him or her unique traits that will help them navigate through life successfully. That molding and shaping process that took place in the Garden of Eden is still happening today. What a wonderful miracle!
Don't ever doubt who you are. You are good enough. You have purpose. God is with you and for you. There will always be people who don't understand you. There will always be people who say, "Why can't you be more like this or more like that?" When people speak those things into your life just look them dead in the eyes and say, "God made me who I am. He made something out of nothing."
"And the Lord God formed man out of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul." Genesis 2:7
Until next time.....Be Real. Be Authentic. Be You.