I am so excited to announce that after four years, I am finally finished with my fifth book! It has been a long time coming and although I have faced some setbacks and detours along the way, I know that God's plan is always perfect. I never gave up on the idea that I would write another book but you know how it is - life happens. Sometimes you are faced with certain roadblocks and you just have to take some time to take a deep breath and reevaluate things. When I began to look at my illness with different lenses, I realized that being in a wheelchair doesn't define me. I still have purpose and God still has a plan. Everyday I am growing stronger and stronger both spiritually and physically and all I can say is that God is working things out for my good.
My passion for writing, if I were to be completely honest started to dim a little because when I first started, writing almost consumed everything. God was constantly giving me ideas for new books and I was pouring everything into it. I would stay up late nights writing and time just seemed to fly by. Speaking engagements were coming left and right and I was excited about the journey God had me on. Then things started to slow down. The speaking engagements started to decline and the books weren't selling as much and I looked at my bank account and wondered how in the world I would be able to sustain life for myself and three young boys. I thought that it would be okay to go and look for a job and still do ministry. People do it all the time right? I went back to work and started part time, then I was presented with a full time opportunity that I accepted and I felt like God was restoring my career after a major setback. The money was good and I felt fulfilled. I was making plans to take courses to build my value in the business community and I was starting to climb the corporate ladder almost in the same way I had done when I first got sick back in 2009. Then, about eight months after accepting that full time job my health started to decline again. It was such a devastating blow at first. I thought to myself, not again. After going through the process of my emotions and looking back over everything that happened, I started to realize that God's plan for my life is bigger than what I could have even imagined for myself.
He intervened in my life so that I would stay on the path that He has for me and that is to write books and share the message of Jesus Christ full time and now I finally understand. Losing the ability to walk has been a life changing experience for me in many ways. If I were to be truly honest, there were parts of me that didn't think that God could use me in a big way. I wondered if I would be accepted. I felt unworthy in many ways and I wondered if I was good enough. Now I realize those were tricks from the enemy to try and kill the purpose in me because he knew that God wanted to use me. I have learned more about myself in the last two years than I can even begin to put into words. I know that I am strong. I know that I am capable. I know that I am an overcomer and I have finally fully embraced the purpose God has for me. It has been a journey to say the least but I know God is going to get the glory out of my life. If that means that I have to go through so that I can encourage someone else, then I fully embrace that calling. My passion for writing and walking in my purpose has sparked again and as I submitted to God, the words began to flow on the pages and before long, I looked up and the book was complete. I am excited about sharing all the details with you first right here on the blog and I know that this book is going to bless you so stay tuned for more. The best is yet to come!
Have you ever struggled with fully embracing your purpose? How did you overcome your struggles? I would love to hear from you!
Until next time,
Be Real. Be Authentic. Be You!